when and where is the fullstop?

i found that our bond is getting weaker and weaker.
it is so easy for our bond to break,
for once i thought that we can maintain our bond forever,
but..

what you are showing me now,
when u message me,
when u talk to me,
when u call me,
when u face me,
i feel that you are so far away from me now..

i don't know what mistake i did before to you,
can you just tell me straight?
or the problem is not with me?

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preparing a carnival for Qinghai Yushu in China,
all the funds collected will be totally donated to the victims there,
is a new challenges for me,
but for them?
i don't know..
seriously,
i feel puzzled,
i have a lot of query,
i even have a lot of anger!
but this time is another story,
I cant blame others,
because i don't even see they want to do it so much.
the YES came out from their mouth probably because i am the one who asked..
(hopefully i still have the power of influence others)

IS ALL MY WISH TO DO THIS..

i suddenly recall back what my brother told me:

'do you think they will understand you?'
'are you sure they understand you?'
'how long do you think they will stay with you after they know it?'
'you have to make sure you get them to help you! NOT PLAY.'

i firmly answered him back a YES that time...
but now, my mind is wavering..

i don't know YOU will say that to me..
it hurts me,
and the feeling that i hate so much is just around me now..
this is the 2nd time i hear in this group of friend,
the first time is from her, and the second time is from him.

and probably you all will tell me:

' NO LA, YOU THINK TOO MUCH.'

ok fine,

PROBABLY!!

MAYBE....

I JUST WANT TO HELP PEOPLES WHO NEED HELPS.
THAT'S IT!!
IS TIME TO FULLSTOP.....