stupid!

i hate myself...

where's the problem actually??

Science stream is it suitable for me?

for once,i always think off this question,

after PMR,

after SPM,

after i enter SEGI,

and even now, when i am having my exam..

i just cannot handle the Maths question....

and chemistry sometimes...

how am i going to choose for my future course?

sigh..

i dont even know what kind of results i will get for this stpm..

headache ar!!!

错过

原来错过了某些东西的感觉是这样的,

心肌不停的在抽搐,

控制不了.

之前好像没有试过这种感觉,

可能有,

但是没那么严重吧.

感觉这次的很严重.

错过了他,

会是怎样呢?

之前自己不把握,

现在才来埋怨,

太迟了!

人类嘛,

就是爱这样,

明知道一些东西是不能回头的,

但是总爱错过,

总爱做错.......

总爱自讨苦吃,

事后又总爱抱怨,

唉,

神在制造人的同时,

也赐给了我们这种性格.

是好事吗?

见人见智吧.

4 more^^

2 weeks more.

i will be free!!!

pls wait for me.....

hehe

4 papers more...

GOD please bless me!...

7 more to go~

c?
how free am i..
i am blogging when my STPm is going on now..

atcually i studied.
very tired now,
memory full dy,
so just come here and release a bit..

just finished biology paper2.
still have 7 papers more to go,
next week is going to be a tiring week,
bcuz going to sit for 3papers continuosly from monday to wed,
worrying bcuz 2of them are my weakest subject,
CHEMISTRY and MATHS,
to get an A for them is something that will NEVER happen,
i just hope that i can get better results than my trials..
hehe..
low self-esteem..
no confident at all!...

sigh...
look at my table...
the books ....
stil have a lot to go !!!!!

FaRK!!!!

bye lo~~

15/11/2009

My Brother_COusin_mEcouSIns

Auntie

relativess

just came back from my mum's cousin wedding party,
my uncle's wedding dinner...

stpm is around the corner,
4days to go..
and i was ...
hehe..

well..
is a chance for me to relax,
to take a rest and go for a family gathering like this,
cuz i have no choice no skip as it is my close relative wedding party,
if i skip this,my auntie will say i am not respecting them...
bla bla bla .,..and so on..

just feel free and update this..
so now i am going to fight with my BIO book..
bless me..
hopefully i can stay up and finish as much as possible..

BYE~~

topic-less

i am nervous now~

what kind of feeling that i am having now?
hard to express out..
i think it will last for 2months.

i hope i can get what i want to get.
i really did my best for it,
but sometimes,it's not under my control.

i tried to control,
but i stucked ..
when i took the question paper,
the ideas....
flew away..
i couldnt get myself into the question..

then?
who i can blame?
myself..
only YOU..
i hate myself to be like this..
i thought everyone say:
time past amazing fast~?

but now,
for this moment,
i feel like it pass TOO SLOW..!

can IT pass faster?

*for those who read my post,please ignore me,
if you found that i am too negative,
cuz here is the only place i can express out everything..
forgive me..~

dying..

huh~
i'm seriously not okay these few days..

exam is just around the corner,
14days to go,
(hauyeen, i repeat it again :D)

but i am mentally and physically bad now..

guess what i did just now in the school?

A 52years old women came to my class,
sounded at us without any purpose,
just to create SOUND pollution..

i was sitting at the teahcer's place,
right in front of my class.
initially,
she was scolding her student who stay in my class and study,(kononnya)..
then suddenly,
she scolded my classmate.
MENAPAUSE WOMEN!!

I contradict her back!
and purposely took out my food and ate in front of her.
while she was still giving her 'speech'..
haha...
althought i know is wrong to do this to a teacher..
but we were studying in the class,
and she came in just like that and make noise here..

fine!
(i'm a good student,this is my 1st time and hopefully is my last time to do this.)

i realise that i am seriously not ok,
how dare i do this?
i keep thinking just now..
why?
the stress..
i seriously cannot cope with that..
i ..
what should i do?sigh...

------------------------------------------------

one of the teacher gave us a short briefing on STPM,
she said something...

'jgn guna perkataan 'harap harap'. contohnya,Saya harap awak semua ni jaga

kebersihan sekolah.'.'BUat ape Harap harap ni?! Kalau nak guna,gunalah istillah MAHU, Saya MAHU awak ni jaga kebershian sekolah..'

but
can we?
can we really change the word hope to Want?

i HOPE i can get 4.0 in the exam.
is it the same as i WANT to get 4.0 in the exam?

'if you tink you can,you can!'
is this sentence true?

screw it up!

again.

i fail to do it.

i fail to get myself into the stack of books..

i dont want to screw up in my exam la..

that stupid depressing feeling just like to disturb me,

suddenly,

without any sign..

and

IT stop me..!

IT likes to appear ....

halfway when i am memorising the BIO..

halfway when i doing the MAThs..

halfway when i am recalling back the organic chemistry~

HATE IT!!

GO TO HELL LA!!!